It's not like I thought quitting smoking was going to be easy - I'm not a moron. But I had absolutely NO IDEA just how hard it would be. I'm on day 2 and I feel like a crazy emotional mess. I can't use the patch, I can't chew the gum, so I'm left with the old-fashioned way. Cold turkey. And after smoking a pack a day for almost 17 years, that is not going to work.
So I called my doctor and am waiting for him to get back to me. One thing is for sure - I am quitting smoking. I'm even more determined now than I was before, due to the fact that I hate losing. I refuse to allow this to get the better of me. My method has to change, but the end goal is still the same.